February 26th

How do I love so fully yet so emptily?

How do I yearn, only to despise and turn away?

How do I long for so much that ultimately I desire nothing?

Is a human meant to carry such splitting polarities?

How is one supposed to hold this?

I want lips, I want tongue, I want my feet entangled with another’s.

What are we fighting for?

I long for everything, so much so that I long for nothing.

I love so deeply, with all of my inner workings, all of my limbs and organs and it just vanishes; evaporates like bodies in a nuclear war.